No chance to breathe
So after I make a big New Years resolution to be better about updating my blog regularly I don’t write in it for about a month. I’m sorry. Let me say it wasn’t my fault. There’s been a lot of darkness in my life and last month I had another bombshell dropped on me. I’d talk more about it on here, but it’s a family matter and there are other people in my family who might not appreciate a lot of soul-bearing and my thoughts on personal issues. And I’m going to respect their wishes.
I will say that dealing with these issues while in a foreign country is not easy, though. You’re far away and it’s easy to close yourself off to everyone. Sadly, I’ve done that too much over here and I feel now like people never got a chance to know me. They just know this girl who’s quiet and lost in her own thoughts. I’m trying hard not to fall into that trap again. I’m trying to reach out to people this time instead, but it’s hard because people don’t always reach back. But I’ll survive, I always do. In the end that’s what I excel at. I’m not going to let other people’s stupid decisions get me down anymore. I’m going to make my own path out here and not fall into a pit of self pity again.
